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“The Hunger Artist” – Unread Kafka Her Mentor

May 22, 2012

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The Hunger Artist

I.

She putties potatoes/eggs/whatever
around her plate, constructing a trompe l’oeil
of savor, tinting flavor
with a spectrum of petite packages – fake sugars  (pastels),
cheap mustard (sallow yellow), ketchup (cadmium)–a palette
that abstracts a meal from anything, or
nothing, frames nibble.

So, she molds herself, flattening
with fingers a fluted
throat, bas-relief of belly, stilled life portrait
that refuses to be titled help me.

II.

She has not read Kafka, but re-enacts
the self-expression of
repression, metier of life/death, her wont: I won’t/I won’t/I won’t.

Or too like the earlier Brunelleschi, working out
perspective by numbers, the intersection of
calories, weight,
narrowing to
a single
vanishing point.

Lettuce pray.

III.

You can self-sculpt flesh
but carved bone is weakened (even when
buttressed by concrete will.)  A
mighty fortress is
my will
, hums
the hunger artist from
the ramparts
of rib cathedral.
Help me, murmurs the animal
base of brain, only, since it holds no
language center, the words transubstantiate to
I won’t.

IV.

The patina depicts
a picky picky
no no no, while within the
figurine –  so much easier to manage a life
that can be pocketed–hallowed emptiness
aches to please.

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The above is my draft offering for dVerse Poets Pub Open Link Night and also for Imperfect Prose.   I urge all interested in reading and writing to check out these sites.  

Crib notes – Franz Kafka wrote a great story called “The Hunger Artist” about an artist who specialized in fasting; Brunelleschi was the Renaissance architect/sculptor/mathematician who was one of the principal developers of linear perspective.

Plan (That Sounds Good Tonight) – Wake Up Early!

May 21, 2012

What I’m Planning For Tomorrow

Another day with very little free time to get new poems right.

But just happened upon something I could do right – right now at least.  Go to bed!  Then wake up early!

(And get everything done then.) (Ha!)

(Isn’t it wonderful how a plan to do something later frees up the present?!)

Have a nice night.

(P.S. – thanks all for the very kind comments.  I will return them soon.)

Busy Busy Times in May – May Also Be Wonderful (May-ditative)

May 20, 2012

Mindfulness- What I Need to Keep in Mind

I have a very few busy days in store.  In the midst of the rush, it’s sometimes very hard for me to keep a kind of mind-set  that allows for enjoyment.  (I’m afraid I’m a bit more like my anxious dog than meditative elephant.)

And then, life (and my own brain) will sometimes surprise me.  It’s a very calm quiet sort of surprise of relatively simple pleasures.  Moments, whole hours, in which the beautiful days of May suddenly feel like May-be (after all), or May-I (Yes!)

Pretty terrific.

“At Sea” – “Verb-al” Poem Of Sorts – with Brother/Sister/Elephant!

May 19, 2012

Sailor Elephant?

At Sea

Brother

The boy hauled the roses like burlap sacking–
at a distance–navigating prickle
through kitchen door which he kicked
to the side for noise value,
hating his mother.  What he wanted was to man
the wood, where he could
lurk and spy and brick up
hideouts with clods of dirt and brush and never lean
to any whim or wish except
of sky and guttering stream
to whose blue wills he’d willingly tack
his whole young life.

Sister

The girl rigged her skirt to
the base of her hips,
tacking the elastic waist
to her pelvis, a convenient gutter
for fabric that would run its own course.
Bottling lips into an appraising O,
she weighed her chances, spying
navel in that belly as smooth
as the long sought shore, distant
yet within reach.

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The above is a paired poem written as part of an exercise on verbs!  In this case, I used verbs associated with the life of a sailor/pirate, i.e. tack, navigate, haul, rig, weigh, spy. (Sorry if it seems a bit sexist!  I  have no particular problem with girls getting mad at having to cart roses around and boys adjusting their clothes.)

At any rate, I am posting this for the dVerse Poets Pub Poetics Prompt – “Tools of the Trade” – which I am also hosting today.  Check it out!

And, while you are at it, check out my books!  Children’s counting book 1 Mississippi -for lovers of rivers, light and pachyderms.  Or, if you in the mood for something older, check out Going on Somewhere, poetry, and Nose Dive, escapist fluff.

Encountering Old Friends When Looking For a Ukulele

May 18, 2012

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I was very proud today, when my visiting daughter was looking for our ukulele, to be able to direct her immediately to an old box that was never unpacked after our last move several years ago.

Amazingly enough when she pulled the box down from the top of a closet, we saw the word “ukulele” scribbled on one flap.

Even more amazing was the fact that the ukulele was actually IN the box.

And beneath the ukulele, on top of a three games of Monopoly and one of a Scrabble, was an old sketch pad that included a series of drawings and paintings I did for a yet unpublished children’s book.

I’d almost completely forgotten about the book.  It is about–you guessed it–a couple of elephants, a dog, and a yoga mouse.

They reunite above.

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Join me at dVerse Poets Pub tomorrow where I am hosting the Poetics Prompt.  I’d give you a hint of the prompt, but I’m not completely sure yet!  Come to dVerse and check it out!!!!

“So Help Me Listening” – Sprung Rhythm? Sonnet?

May 17, 2012

So Help Me Listening

No no (dear god dear god dear god) I’m not mad at you.
Seriously, I AM (so help me) listening.
It’s just that I’ve got (Christ almighty) a tad to do,
and family genealogy (all who was and had) isn’t somehow glistening
at the top (or even slop) of my list of priorities.
But I know (no no no no) that you’re different;
wounded by small-town cruelties,
teacher slaps, kid snubs, a scrubbiness that rent
a childish heart in two (one two); scars’ scurvies
repustulating ache, like the cut in your hip (that too)
as even the straight mind topsy-turvies
here and there and there and there and you
have, I admit it, told me before
once or (but it’s sore, and yes I will try) more.
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I am posting the above for dVerse Poets Pub “Form For All” prompt hosted by Gay Reiser Cannon on “sprung rhythm,” a form of meter used primarily by Gerard Manley Hopkins.  I also tried to make it a sonnet – at least 14 lines – since that’s another Hopkins trick.

Danced Out

May 16, 2012

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Exhaustion strikes, but in a good way.  This exhaustion comes from dancing with a nearly 90-year old woman (my mom)–I call it dancing, and I say it’s with her.  This is not accurate: -it was dancing a couple of feet behind with arms outstretched to catch her in case of a fall.

My mother grew up in a time and family in which people didn’t really touch.  Everything about them was northern; and the times were harsh.  As a result, touch is somewhat distracting to her, an imposition rather than support.  (It’s a bit of a tussle to take her arm even when crossing a busy street.)

And yet, there was dancing.  With.  Her.  Of a sort.  (One two three four, one two three four–she counts time aloud with quiet absorption as she moves.  I hate to say that I think the song was a waltz.)

A magnificent sort.

Music–it enlivens/energizes/lightens the body and soul.

(One two three four, one two three four, one two threeeeeeee.)

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I am linking this post to Imperfect Prose, run by Emily Wieranga.  The dancing came about, in part, because I just got a speaker for my computer so that my visiting quite- deaf mother could actually hear some of the music on my iTunes.   She liked it a lot.

“Side”

May 15, 2012

Side (drawing by Diana Barco)

Side

All day I’ve seen your side
in my mind, the smooth slopes
of rib, hip, limb, like
the banks of a river.
All day I’ve strained
towards these banks
with an overflow of self,
that wash of discontent,
too quick, too fretful, to find anything
but what’s next and next and next.
All day I’ve longed to stretch out by some cove
in your warm torso–
you’re so sound in sleep–
to slide between joint, bone, flesh,
to subside.

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Here’s a poem just for today, which is a bit of a tired day.  It’s not the one I’m posting for dVerse Open Link Night – I opted for funny for the Open Link – Gauguin’s Stomach Grumbles, as I think people can always use a laugh.

The above, Side, has been slightly revised from my book of poems Going on Somewhere.  The book/poem by Karin Gustafson (me), the drawing is by Diana Barco; Diana also illustrated the book.

Gauguin’s Stomach Grumbles (Oy! Poi!)

May 14, 2012

“The Meal,” 1891, by Paul Gauguin

Gauguin’s Stomach Grumbles – Pourquoi Poi?

Mes petits choux, don’t get me wrong–
I absolument do not long
for France or that old life of mine–
where so terrible was the grind–

Vraiment, I love the sun and shade
of this Tahitian island glade
but my old tum, not Polynesian,
simply won’t become amnesian
and insists on crying, ‘Oy evay,
non non non non more poi today.’

My tum’s the problem–it’s not me
it’s having a hard time ici;
it simply won’t accoutumée
to guava without creme brûlée.

I see coquille–it thinks St Jacques
(it doesn’t much like taro snacks).
So please mes enfants m’excusez,
when I say I’ll pass on poi today.

Perhaps un jour, I’ll change my mind;
my tum will hush its spoiled whine.
But til I reach that day so calm–
just pour me more of vin du Palme
And, s’il vous plait, go ahead, enjoy
that whole darn plat of lovely poi.

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The above is my offiering for The Mag 117, where Tess Kincaid posts a pictoral prompt. I am also posting it for dVerse Poets Open Link Night. 

This week, Tess’s prompt, is the lovely painting by Paul Gauguin, who left his home in Europe, France and Denmark, for French Polynesia. There’s a bit of poetic license here – poi is the Hawaian name for a paste made from Taro. I believe they have the same stuff in Polynesia, but don’t know what they call it.

All the words above in italics are in French except “oy evay!” The point of this note is that “terrible” should be read ‘teRRIbla,’ more or less.

If you are in the mood for more silliness, check out my novel, Nose Dive, escapist fun that costs a whole lot less than a trip to Tahiti. If you are in the mood for something artistic, check out 1 Mississippi (children’s counting book with elephants, illustrated by yours truly).

“Know This” Poem for Mother’s Day For A Mother Taken Too Soon

May 13, 2012

Not a Mother, a Buddha, but Looks Motherly to Me

The Last Thing –  Mother To Child

For Rhona Saffer

Know that,
when I must go,
I will love you
just the same.

When I must go,
I know it will not feel
just the same.
There will be cool air—

I know it will not feel
like my lips—
but there will be cool air
caressing your face

like my lips,
while your smile only,
caressing your face
(oh reflection of mine),

will be your smile only.
I never wanted to cause you pain,
oh reflection of mine.
That was the last thing

I ever wanted to cause you—pain.
No, I would love you—
that was the last thing.
Just the same,

know, I would love you,
will love you,
just the same.
Know that.

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The above is a poem (posted before) for Mother’s Day, written for a dear friend of mine, who was a consummate mother.  The poem was written for her when, in the terminal stages of breast cancer, she told me that one of the most painful parts of her impending death was her concern for the suffering it would cause her wonderful children. I was able to read the poem to her before her death. 

The picture is of a Japanese Buddha not mother! at the Yale Art Museum.  Although buddhas are generally male, this one has a very maternal feel, I think.  I am also linking this post to Imaginary Gardens with Real Toads, a site for poetry and support for poets, focusing today on motherhood.