Sherbet

Posted July 5, 2022 by ManicDdaily
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Sherbet

We felt in the morning that we should try
for red, white and blue,
but more comfortable were our shorts the color
of sherbet, which we wore,
darting fast as fireflies, until
as twilight deepened,
the sparklers were passed
into our grip.

We did not need to be told
not to run with them—
awe and a little fear pulled our skin back
from our outstretched arms, which made their own
outer space, galaxies fountaining
at our fingertips.

Soon (as we felt control) neon squiggles grew
to loops then our
whole names—
you could see the haloed letters
if you looked—

Years later, I lay with my children
on a blanket in damp grass, scanning the dome of sky
for shooting stars.

Faster than fireflies—you had to keep your eyes open
not to miss them
there….

There…..

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A belated poem for the 4th! The pic is from a new little book called Bug Cars. Right now it is only available on Blurb. (Sorry that I’ve been so absent–I’ve been working for days on a poem inspired by the Dobbs decision, but haven’t gotten it right–probably too much anger there.)

Take care!

Driving Rain/Fear/Car

Posted June 24, 2022 by ManicDdaily
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Driving Rain/Fear/Car

Fear draws fate, dread
a magnet.

I think of the young boy in trial
little league who, terrorized by
the hardball, invariably pivoted
into the pitch. 

In my case, it’s the car.

A few days ahead of a longish drive
I check the weather, then obsess over the hourly
projections looking for the window
when it won’t rain, or if it must, then not
very much.

“Showers” are heavier than “rain”, right?
I go through the tenths of the inch at all the various
projected times, both here and there, hoping for coordinated
“cloudy”ness—

The day itself dawns dry and I change
my whole schedule, determined to leave in
fifteen minutes, dragging the dirty clothes
from their planned wash—where I’m going has
a machine—

But (fifteen minutes has spread into forty-five)
now the sky is puffing over—the trouble is that I just haven’t driven enough—
I lived too many years
in New York City—

I make myself leave, and soon marvel
at how even when it does rain, it is manageably sprinkly—

But the most difficult part of this trip is the last
ten minutes,
when the route runs into one highway then veers into
the left of another highway,
and then takes an almost immediate exit
four lanes
to the right—

Just as I get to those highways, what may be called
“showers” but should be called “torrents” flood
my windshield,
swish, blur, swash, blank—

I try to make the wipers faster, but they wipe
as fast
as they will go, while I am frozen—wait, keep your foot
on the gas—for I am now
in the left lane, the fastest of four—

I tell myself that I could just stay on this highway—who cares
about the exit?  There are other
exits—

But my fear tells me that I cannot stay on this highway, for I cannot see
the highway, I cannot stay on a highway
that I cannot see,
so, slowly—am I going
too slowly? I try again to activate
my foot, make myself peer
into the slosh shown
in my rear-view mirror, make myself trust
in ten grey feet
of swish and the strength
of my signal light, and will myself
to the right, and again, to the right, and yet again,
to the right—

Beethoven consoles me, and Pablo
Casals—and there in the blur
is the sign overhead, and a voice says unsympathetically to take
that exit and I peel off, and now, that I am
 the only person in a single slowing lane, the rain too
slows—I do not honestly believe
the sky is malicious—

I feel, I suppose, a sense of accomplishment, but also
vulnerability, stupidity—
as adrenaline slowly dismantles the tower
it has built inside my chest, that place
with a view. 

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Very much a draft and probably not a poem!  Have a good Friday!

All rights reserved to text and pic.  Pic doesn’t really go with post, but has rain! 

Moving the Piano

Posted June 21, 2022 by ManicDdaily
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Moving the Piano

The wind blew so hard it seemed that it might lift the wood
like a sail,
but it only whipped at the pants,
of the two short men, who felt obliged, at that point, to prove
their own strength. The legs of the beast—that is, the Upright—
transfixed as a bull’s
at the bottom of a high stoop, bruised grass beneath it, and uneven
frozen earth. 

So, slowly, with arms stretched like cords,
legs braced, spines pushing a weight that pushed
back, flngers as clenched as at a recital, the men
shifted the dark wood—you could feel the ivories’ smirk—

Until they were in. 
The men laughed then companionably, bending back one hand,
then the other, and closed the door to shut out
the wind’s harsh howl.

Wheeled the piano now, well, more or less wheeled it,
to its allotted spot—it was like a small triumph
of the human spirit—
the making of our own
music.

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Another drafty poem. The pic was the only piano I could find (that I had made.) The one in the poem is an upright not a grand. Have a good day!

The last time I saw my father

Posted June 19, 2022 by ManicDdaily
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The last time I saw my father

He was so serene, I marveled how the undertaker
had gotten him
exactly right; his face back to a dignity it had always had
in illness, and also not;
his features so sweetly defined, not blurred
as they could be
by pain or anxiety—

He had never been fearful (not for himself), but he had worried deeply
about those he loved—why were they so determined
to take chances?
Or, much more insistently:
what would happen to her (my mother) when
he was gone?

But the last time I saw him, his face
no longer fretted—I had seen it before they fixed him too
and I know—
I know—
he no longer worried, and it wasn’t because
of any lessening of love,—

So that when I weep now,
it is for myself only, not for his loss of life,
but for my loss
of him—

I do not worry about what
has happened to him, where
he has gone—
With both hands, with his own face,
he gave me some measure of freedom
from that— 

There is simply a kind of love you cannot bear
not to have any more,
even when
you still have it. 

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Draftish poem for Father’s Day. Have a good one!

ps – as always, all right to text and image reserved.

Hug

Posted June 18, 2022 by ManicDdaily
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Hug

The hug was long and close and I,
who come from a long line of those who could not bear
physical closeness, who could only share
the briefest brush—one person’s arm crossing some part
of another, like a sweater sleeve slipping
from a chair—

I who came from those Northern people,
those who could only come close
to a snuggle
when children needed
to be warmed,
let myself hug back, subduing the alarm
that must arise if you are me,
my people still holding me
from some long and far way off,
so awkwardly, so stalwart.

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I announced yesterday I’d take a break from trying to write and then came up with the draft poem above! Note that the drawing is an old one, not written for the poem. Here’s another old one below, that half-seemed to fit.

Happy weekend!

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Snake in the Grass?

Posted June 17, 2022 by ManicDdaily
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Hello Blog World, 

I am kind of a bear market right now, in terms of creative output.  In part, this is because I can’t find, or just can’t give myself, space, time, quiet.  The fractiousness of the world is hard to shake-off, and the pressure of disturbance seems to infiltrate even inner life. 

In these circumstances, it is also hard to believe that making one’s art matters very much.   Weirdly, reading is one of the few places where I, at least, find relief.  But the world is such a jumble, it’s hard to believe it needs , or will read, anything that I might put out.

Yes, a writer should write just because they enjoy the writing.  And, obviously, I do enjoy writing.  But working on a project, finishing a project, can be hard; it typically involves a fair amount of self-criticism and punishing embarrassment!  And, of course, concentration. 

Anyway, I vent/ explain/look for comfort! 

Luckily, I am not so invested in drawing, which I do out of a pure almost childish love, with very little expectation, and not even too much need for encouragement (!), so will maybe post little pics for a while. 

Take care!  

Underwater

Posted June 16, 2022 by ManicDdaily
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Blue Suede Shoes

Posted June 15, 2022 by ManicDdaily
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Sorry–this posted from my phone without my knowing what I was doing! Hope all is well!

Hello! (Birds)

Posted June 11, 2022 by ManicDdaily
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Have a good Saturday!

Under Wing

Posted June 8, 2022 by ManicDdaily
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Hello! I’ve been away but am back! This note is a bit cheerier than the drawing above, but there it is. Hard to be too cheery, with hearings like those in DC today–

Take care–