Archive for May 2015

On The Day

May 12, 2015

 

On the day

On the day you died,
some could swallow
somewhere else.

Sips were tipped from glasses rimmed
with bright transparency;
cake was even guzzled, laughing,
over weaving cleavages of satin;

sand absorbed the sea
a few blocks away,
as little see-through crabs were digested
and regurgitated
in the crawling sway;

I tried to give you something sweet, honey,
but sweetness
was yours
to surfeit–

the quick swoop of a bird, so like
a swallow,
shadowed the glass
by your bed, the door,
the window–

So hard to swallow
what we live through,
the done rising in our throats
with each day’s sun.
Not bright, not
transparent,
still, sometimes we want to shade our eyes
looking inside
in the way that one might peer
through a pinhole
at the eclipse
of a whole star.

 

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Here’s another one inspired by the Real Toads prompt by Grace on Jane Hirshfield;  I am linking it to Real Toads Tuesday Open Forum.

The process of online poetry is so interesting to me–I like to write at a fairly rapid clip so post fairly frequently and often call things drafts.  This is one I wrote yesterday morning essentially and have been revisiting since then–adding little (important) bits, then cutting dramatically–cutting at least a third yesterday and about twenty percent more  just this morning. (Which makes me nervous enough that I put back a few words here and there–ha!)   So, I’m not certain I’ve got the best version–and maybe should even cut more–at the same time, I would just as soon go ahead and post, as I’m not sure I can make a concrete decision about it all right now.  

The pic is mine and is taken from the back of a ghost dance drum, made by George Beaver, a Pawnee in Oklahoma around 1891-92.  (I do not mean the poem to be about Native Americans, but photographed the drum at a recent exhibit I saw about Plains Indians. ) 

At the Museum After a Difficult Week

May 10, 2015

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Not the Picasso I had in mind, when writing, but they are all great and this one comes with elephant–

At the Museum After a Difficult Week

Part of what I like
about Picasso
is the way his people
fill up space.
Even the planed face–the blank make-up of the harlequin–
carries weight,
though nothing like those places where the grease paint
does not reach–the unpainted (painted)
hands, the knuckles sculpted
with hardly a smudge–

Just so, I tell a flattened self,
I need to read people’s volumes–

especially those whose voices even sport
arched brows, tongues stenciled
with sneer, whose intonations alone
could decimate me–

a demotion of what would stand
in me
to step-stool–

When you’re a step-stool
it’s hard to feel much
but feet–

Still, I tell myself–
(for the heelers are so often
as unhealed)
to look for people’s spaces–
not on the drawn face
but at the wrist–
the puckered grist
of knuckle, the twists between
the creases on
the palm–

For life shakes hands
with us all,
leaves its fingerprints
with every brush;
oh life, you, grand master.

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Okay, this one I’m definitely calling a draft.  It is written for Grace’s prompt on With Real Toads to write a poem influenced by Jane Hirschfeld.  The Picasso above was not exactly the one that I was thinking of in writing the poem, as it doesn’t show any hands well, but at least this one has an elephant.  (Rare in Picasso’s oeuvre.)

Battlefield (After)

May 8, 2015

Battlefield (After)

They lay, blooded clay,
late in the fragmented day,
their cracked bit of dawn withdrawn
from ongoing time; what had been housed in them gnawed
by lead.
What was left swelled,
as darkness fell,
rounding to cratered planet, bellied moon,
as if some elemental piece of them
thought it might pass for a body
that could, insistent, return whole,
given time,
though its revolution would not take it
to this same spot
but to some soft hill
where grass lay still
beneath their feet, and
stars stared brightly down,
night’s pupils.

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For Grapeling’s (“It Could Be That’s) “Get Listed” prompt on with real toads, the words from Pablo Neruda poems.  (Thanks to Grapeling, who is just a wonderful poet and blog friend.)

The pic was taken by me at the Plains Indians exhibit at the Metropolitan Museum in New York tonight.  I don’t particularly mean the poem to be about a battle involving Native Americans–honestly, I was thinking more of WWI or the Spanish Civil War or other battlefields, but the picture was on my phone.  However, it is an incredibly beautiful exhibit; the painting above about the death of Sitting Bull.  

(Spring) Keening

May 7, 2015

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(Spring) Keening

The tinnitus of tree frogs
made us wince.  You laughed,
“it really is
almost deafening.”
“Crazy,” I half-
shouted back,

though the dusk itself
fell like damask, a swish of silk, its shifts
of blues, greys, greens unmasked,
as the pond cupped the evening
like a hand over an ear trying to hear
that separate resonance,
as the sky cupped the pond,
the mouth of its
own sea;

in the midst of which
we chased geese.

We’d been chasing them
all afternoon, you longer–a pair–
with shouts and even gun shot–
This last time you snuck up
with the rake, me as decoy,
but found, after they honked away,
two eggs, housed in the soon-to-be taller
grass, deposited
in what must have been
a trice.

You just can’t have geese
in a swimming pond–if you know geese, I don’t need
to tell you why–

“You warned them,” I said.
“All week,” you sighed,
then, balancing the eggs
on the rake’s claw,
moved them somewhere back
from water’s edge.

“Little foxes
need to live too,” I said,
as we each pictured
that poor mangy one
who haunted this same grass
last summer.

Later, on the porch, we waited, dreadful,
for a wail of honk, a wall of honk,
some mournful where are you? that would push against
the frogs’ insistent I’m here–

”Maybe some instinct–”
you said.  “Maybe when they’re scared off
their actual nest–”

as we watched the moon outpace
trees’ reach–so fast it moved
when measured against
branched crowns;

though once on in its own,
in the nothing but deep sky,
the rise seemed, for a while,
to still,
as if the earth stopped turning
briefly.

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A draft poem of sorts for Grapeling’s (Michael’s) “Get Listed” prompt on Real Toads.   Sorry for the length.  

For those who do not suffer from it (!), tinnitus is a ringing in the ears.  The pic is not a spring pic but it shows a mangy fox.

 

 

All in the Head

May 5, 2015

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All in the Head

There is a pain
that spots my brain;
I sometimes think of it
as a birthmark.

Only I have a birthmark; it spreads
the continent of Australia palely
over one thigh.

So not exactly
a birthmark, more akin
to the brindlng
of Gerard Manly Hopkins’
cows, God’s dappling–
except that a pox
comes more to mind.

I do not write
of a head-ache.
I write of pain
whose spread even the moon waxing gibbous, glorious,
through the black-veined climb of limb, through
the capillaries
of night-branched sky,
cannot stanch,
even as the brain observes, awed,
beauty, the wholly
good.

We cannot help
how we are made;
some of us with a burst heart lodged
in our foreheads,
a splaying mass that refuses to stay down under
even as we stand beneath
a Northern
light night sky,
both part of it
and not part,
some wrong-headed beating
beating
as if it had
caught wings,
as if it were a bird,
not heart, or part
of a bird.

We don’t like to speak
of these things, but how else are we
to make a space
where we
can see?

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A draftish poem for Real Toads Tuesday Open Platform. Sorry for the length.  Also, the picture is not the one I have in my mind, but one I had on my computer; maybe will update if I get a better one.  As a process note, Gerard Manley Hopkins has a beautiful poem about pied (meaning spotted) beauty.

Koan of Sorts (At Least Rhymes With)

May 2, 2015

Koan of Sorts (At Least Rhymes With)
                 “And the sound of one hand clapping is cl–”
Paraphrase of Terry Pratchett from Thief of Time.

 

Sage: the cup you drink is already broken.

Modern-Age: So, get me a new cup.

The new too
is already broken.

What?!!  I’ll sue!

But it’s a metaphor.  As well as–

Teach ‘em to sell me broken cups!

–a truth.

The truth?  I’d as soon
have a plastic bottle, something to just
throw away.

Groan.

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Kerry O’Connor on Real Toads asks us to write a Zen poem in 55 words.  This poem (not including the introductory material) is 55 words, and incorporates my favorite Zen saying (about impermanence) that says the cup you are drinking from is already broken.  Watercolor is mine–not fully suited, but I’ve always liked that little dog.  I’ve also posted a more poetic (if possibly less Zen) 55 that can be found here.  

Once More

May 2, 2015

  Once More

I want
to stop time.
I want to park it on
a swing and re-arc
the same pie of sky
until I’ve had
my fill.
I don’t want
you to die.
Or me.
And I want to live all the many moments
this single one can be
again and again
until I get it
right.

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Aha!  It is May and a new poem (or draft poem) occurred to me last night.  I may link this to Real Toads as the poem turned out, on first write, to be exactly 55 words (and it happens to be a Flash 55 day.)  Or maybe I’ll come up with another!  Who knows?  (Freedom from compulsion–meaning the fact that my commitment to April is over and I can write as many poems a day as I wish –or not–is its own inspiration!)  Have a good weekend.

PS  Pic is mine–all rights reserved.